So, you know it’s officially been far too long since you’ve blogged when you have to reset your password to access your site.
I can’t believe that it’s been nine months since I’ve logged into this space. According to my WordPress Dashboard, I haven’t missed out on too much … the top search is still “I’m pregnant and can’t see my vagina” and there have been 13,616 malicious password reset attempts to log in here.
So, I guess I should start by explaining why I quit coming here (almost) every day. The short of it is this: After my dads accident, TJs abrupt decision to retire from hockey, and Michaela’s scary welcome into the world all boom boom booming one after the other after the other, I absolutely lost myself. The last personal post that I published here was about my postpartum depression and how I was having a difficult time navigating through motherhood and life. Looking back, I’m not surprised in the least bit that I was all over the place for a while. Everything that I thought that I knew about myself and my life tornado’ed out of control and it took months of soul searching, mental and emotional growth, and detoxing from all of the negative things and people in my life that were weighing me down to finally anchor myself and find happiness again.
And now? I’m thriving. I have less stress and less worry, I’m more productive and energized, and I have so much time and love to pour into others. I’ve been on a health and happiness journey these few months that I’ve been away from “blogland” and it’s pretty incredible to be able to reflect on where I was a year ago and where I stand today since making it a top priority to focus my time and attention to the aspects of my life that are truly important to me – myself, my family, my friends, and how I fuel my mind and body. It’s funny, when you get rid of the shit that weighs you down, you realize how much of it was never truly yours to carry.
I guess that there are a few updates that I should share to catch y’all up on the last nine months…
So, I had another baby. Really! A little girl named Ellie Olivia. For the record: I was actually going to do my final review and publish this post last Sunday right after I was finished putting Michaela to sleep … but my water broke while I was laying in bed with her! Crazy, right? haha! Ellie’s birth story goes a little something like this: We arrived at the hospital on October 30th around 9pm, we were admitted around 1am, I received a little pitocin and an epidural around 3am (I couldn’t feel a damn thing and it was amazing – my epidural failed with M and I felt EVERYTHING!), I was 10cm by 5am but I wasn’t feeling any contractions so I snoozed for a bit, my nurse came in at 9:35am to tell me that the team of doctors decided that I had to start pushing since it had been 12+ hours since my water broke, and Ellie entered the world on Halloween at 9:49am. Fourteen minutes of pushing, #rockstar. Her (impending, at the time!) birth is what spiked my interest in writing here again. I’m looking forward to documenting her first year as well as the friendship and sisterhood that will develop between her and my sweet Michaela.
I am currently back living in Massachusetts and I still own SyracuseMomsBlog.com even though we don’t live in New York anymore. It’s a lot of work running the site, but I have a fantastic team of writers who make that portion of the job easy, and it’s really fulfilling to be able to connect moms who might be struggling or who just need a good laugh.
I partnered with a health and wellness company and I’m so thankful that I took the leap! After seeing my friend Kate look AMAZING at three months postpartum, I decided to try the nutrition that she was using and I fell in love. In one month I finally dropped the last ten pounds of baby weight that I had been carrying around for ten months … but more important than that, the mental clarity and positivity that came with fueling my body with proper nutrition and adaptogens literally changed my life! I know that sounds super cheesy, but it’s the truth. Plus, it’s incredible to be a part of a team of women (ok, there are some men too – TJ loves this nutrition!) who truly support you and only want the best for you. I stopped being shy about it (it was kind of my little secret for months!) and I started sharing how amazing I feel a few months back, and my only regret is that I wish that I had started sharing it sooner. I finally feel like I have a purpose outside of motherhood, and it’s been SO fulfilling to be able to contribute to our finances AND to be able to get other people started on their own health and happiness journeys – especially after knowing how much I struggled in silence with my own weight, confidence, and attitude before I pieced myself back together. Feel free to write or send me a request on Facebook if you want to connect with me and learn more :)
Michaela is a wild child. I can’t believe that she will be two in two months! I’m sad that I don’t have updates documented here past her one year birthday … but it’s been SO fun watching her learn and grow. She’s talking SO much, knows all of her colors, can count to 19, knows a few shapes, and loves to swim. She’s obsessed with cats (she’s going to be a cat lady for sure, haha!), loves goats, one of her favorite things to do is to go to my grandparents house to feed their ducks, chickens and bunnies, she is VERY opinionated and stubborn (I wonder where she gets that from….), isn’t a fan of sleeping, loves pasta, popcorn and cantaloupe, and pushes my buttons unlike anyone else. Oh but I love her so <3
TJ is working for a sandblasting and painting company – they are actually currently working on a project in Worcester, which is where we met, and this allowed me to be at home in MA to deliver #2, so it’s worked out perfectly for us. I always worried about what he would do after hockey, but he absolutely loves his job – it still provides him with a physical team atmosphere and we’re happy to report that the “real world” isn’t as scary as we always imagined. The company has contracts all over, which is going to allow us to travel and I’m looking forward to being on the move again – I don’t think that we are meant to stay in one place!
Brutus hates all of us. Well, he still sort of likes TJ, but he’s not a fan of Michaela or me at all. He’s not vicious or anything, but he’s super jealous of M! It’s sad, but that’s what I get for treating him like a human all of those years.
So I don’t plan on updating here 5x per week like I used to, but I’m excited to dip my toes back into “blogland”, to reconnect with old friends, meet new ones, and to have a place to store my memories and photos again. The best way to stay connected with me everyday is by following along on Insta. Talk soon!